I Might Actually Have A Direction…

I’ve done it once again. I’ve completely ignored this blog. Pretty surprising, huh? I think I had even made a commitment to do at least 3 posts a week or something. Well, obviously that didn’t pan out thanks to me. Another case of my ridiculous procrastination. Anyhow, before I start to ramble on too much (I’m saving that for the rest of this post) I’d like to say that I finally think I know where I’d like to take this blog. I think what I would like to do is dedicate the blog section of this website to actual blogging. In a previous post I said otherwise but I’ve now decided to take this path (I’m not saying that I’ve committed to it though because I could very well change my mind). This blog section will basically be a way for me to express myself and get things off of my chest. I’ll try to incorporate the main themes of this website as often as I can (anxiety, depression, personal development, etc) as often as I can but I’ll also be writing about whatever the hell I want to. In addition to publishing “blog like” related content I’ll also be creating informational articles around the themes of this website. However, these articles will not be in the same section as my blog content. Each article will be its own individual page completely separate from the blog section of this website. On the blog section you will find my posts (what you are looking at now) and then you will be able to look at the informational pages. Essentially, a post and a page are the same exact thing it’s just that I’ll be dedicating conventional posts to blog like content.

The reason I am doing this is because I like the idea of having both a section where I can express myself and interact with readers (hopefully I’ll get some of those in the future) as well as a section where I can provide helpful content based upon my prior knowledge or through my own research. On the informational side of things there will not be any commenting. I see the informational articles as a more formal section. I really do like this concept and I honestly do think that I’ll stick with it.

Now that I’ve gotten the formalities out of the way I’d like to take this blog post back to expressing myself. Man, where the hell do I begin? First of all, I’d like to say that I am super secretive when it comes to this blog and what I say on this blog. It isn’t so much as holding back on expressing myself as much as it is expressing specifics that could be traced back to me. The name of the game is paranoia. This blog has no readership whatsoever and hardly any traffic at all and I am already concerned with being found out. The thing is that I just want to remain anonymous and having my real identity revealed seems like it would be absolutely terrible. I don’t know, it’s probably me over worrying as usual. That’s my anxiety for you. When I look past the binds of anxiety I do realize that someone would truly want to know who I am in order to find me out. The only way for someone to do that would be to piece together bits and pieces of what I say here in terms of specific things I talk about. Like I said, this is what I’ve held back on. But then I really start to think about the plausibility of someone taking the time to find out who I am I realize that it isn’t very plausible at all. My biggest fear is someone who I know finding this blog and the chances of that are even slimmer. I’m just a very private person as far as my depression and anxiety experience goes. I’m also a private person in general.

Well, I have something that I need to do school related so I think I’ll cut this post short. It did feel pretty good to just write. Damn my strange ways of thinking and damn my procrastination (more on that in a later post)! Anyhow, I’m glad that I finally got around to posting here. I have a good feeling about this website and I really do think I can make it a success (gaining a readership, helping others, driving traffic). That is all I have to say.