Don’t Know What To Write About!

It really does suck when you want to write but you have know clue what to write about. This is exactly how I’m feeling right about now. I seem to have an ongoing problem when it comes to thinking of an idea and then translating that idea into writing. I really need to get better at this and hopefully this blog will allow me to do so.

Seriously, I literally just looked at my computer screen for a good 10 seconds unable to think up an idea. I really don’t know what to say so I suppose I’ll just keep on writing about nothing. I think the idea of expressing my thoughts and feelings (real, genuine thoughts and feelings) is still very strange to me. And the fact that I have absolutely no readers what so ever makes it that much weirder. With that said, I am confident that things will get better once I get the ball rolling. I just need to push myself to produce more useful content and to try and write every single day.

Another problem I am dealing with right now is setting this site/blog up the way I want it to be. I haven’t even touched the surface as far as getting this blogsite ready. And to be honest I am a bit overwhelmed right now. I hope that in a year I will be laughing at the discomfort I am going through right now, I really do. But until then…I need to start working my ass off!

Anyhow, it’s time to end this anything-but-useful post. I’ll most likely be writing some more amazing content in the very near future (like a few hours).

What Holds Us Back?

It is now 1:58 AM and I feel compelled to write a post here on AnxietyDepressionAndI.com…and so I am! The reason why I am compelled to write up a new post is because I have become fed up with myself. All I’ve been doing lately is procrastinating, procrastinating, and then procrastinating some more. I know what I should be doing, yet I somehow find a way to do something else that wastes my time. I know exactly what I need to do in order to make more money, yet I am faced with this mental block every time I have even the slightest inclination to do some work. Writing up new content for this blogsite is also something I’ve been putting off.

And this is exactly why I am writing right this minute. I’ve just had enough of my ridiculous procrastination skills. I honestly don’t understand myself sometimes. The way I think about some things is completely out of wack. You see, there are things which I would like to get done and even some things that I would enjoy doing; things I like. But all of these “things” are shoved in the back of my mind. They are there and I know they exist back there…but something holds me back from getting to them.

Hopefully I can start doing something productive with my time because there is at least one task that has escaped my mental prison and that is to write here. I just finished a relaxing cigarette outside amidst the still scene of night and I am now ready to vent. Rest assured, this vent has a purpose.

This morning I would like to address the topic of what holds us back. What holds us back from doing that work. What holds us back from taking that chance. What holds us back from getting out of the house. What holds us back…from just about anything. That is what I want to talk about.  So, keep on reading to the next section. Don’t let anything hold you back this time because you might actually figure out what has been holding you back all of this time. Yes, I made that last one confusing on purpose…

Thinking And Doing Are Not Alike

All of us have times when we think to ourselves, “Man, I’ve got to do that in a year!” or “I definitely would like to take a trip there eventually.” or just about anything that we would very much like to have that involves a lot of doing. However, very rarely does one of us take the necessary steps in order to become a millionaire or visit that special place. The idea of something which we fantasize about remains just that for the most part, and idea. Most people do not break the norm and strive to achieve what they really want from life. Most people settle for “right now”. The idea of rolling in money is a very nice one but most of us aren’t willing to even think about moving out of our comfort zones.

Now, I realize that I’m talking about rather difficult tasks when it comes to being held back by ourselves but there is a point to it all. The point is that this type of thinking can apply to just about any type of task. Take me for example. I have some very serious problems when it comes to “getting things done”. So serious, that I am actually running out of ways to procrastinate even further. If you have any good ones please do share. Seriously though, most of us are held back even when we are faced with the simplest of tasks. And I know for a fact that I am not the only crazy one because of one word, trash. How many of us enjoyed taking out the trash as children? That’s what I thought. And if you did enjoy taking out the trash then you have your own issues to sort out other than what’s holding you back in life.

You see, there are so many little things in life that we aren’t willing to do. Maybe you don’t want to wash the dishes. Maybe you don’t want to do what it takes in order to earn a promotion. Maybe you are fine with your car that doesn’t work. Or maybe, you’ve just thought of ten tasks relevant to you that you just can’t seem to get done.

Ok then, what the hell holds us back? I mean, that is the title of this post after all. Ready for the answer? This is where I’d give it to you if I had it but since I don’t you’ll need to continue on.

The reason why I can’t tell you the answer is because it is unique to you and your situation. It’s not a cop out, let me explain further. Let’s take a look at what kinds of tasks I’ve been putting off:

• Doing work
• Writing
• Lifting
• Running

Right this minute I can see at least one huge commonality between all of these things. All of these things do not have an immediate gain. They all require an ongoing effort in order to see any type of gain. All of these things also offer quite a significant gain to me. So, let’s do a quick diagnosis for yours truly.

I most likely have intimacy…wrong post. Let’s start over. My problem (in my opinion) is that I lack motivation and more importantly I have somewhat of a fear of success. I suppose this mental block which I described earlier is my mind keeping me from taking that chance. I could triple my income, but why do so when I can settle for where I’m at right now? I do want to be financially independent and know exactly where I want to be at in a year from now, but why take that chance? I think that on some level I am thinking this way. It could be my sub-conscious coming out. It could be that I am crazy. Who knows? It is very interesting to think about nonetheless.

You see, I am pretty confident when it comes to some of my life goals and in particular where I would like to be at in a year or two from now. However, lately it seems as though I am my worst enemy. Like I said, very interesting stuff to think about.

As you can see, you are the only one who can truly know what is holding you back. What you need to do is to take a hard look at what you aren’t getting done and then try to figure out the significance of what needs to be done. For example, maybe you don’t want to clean up the house simply because it is a task which you find annoying. In that case, your reason for being held back would be your lack of motivation. I realize that some of what I am saying is very generic and vague but I sincerely believe that it is the truth.

I hope that by taking a look at my example of what is holding me back you can start to see what is holding you back when it comes to getting things done. I have to warn you though, know what holds you back is only half the battle. You’ll still need to actually take care of your own roadblocks as well as get something done…

Life’s Just Cruisin’ By

Alright, this one should be a shorter post. Not that it matter anyhow since I don’t have any readers yet…at least I’m pretty sure I don’t have any readers yet. This is something that I need to work on (yes, actually work hard) over the next few months. What I need to do is provide authoritative content related to depression, anxiety, personal development, etc. by compiling information from several different sources. You see, what I’d like to do with this blog/website is to express myself (my experiences, my thoughts, my randomness) as well as provide quality information about the topics which this blog covers. And I’ll end it there.

Let’s get back on track now. What I’d like to talk about now is my life and how at the moment it is relatively good. I can’t really put it any other way than to say that life’s just cruisin’ by. To be honest, I’m not really doing much in terms of productive activities. And to be honest again, I’m basically just enjoying summer for what it is; at least what I see it as. I mean, just this minute I called two of my buddies up to do something. And I will be doing something very soon, probably write after I am finished with this post.

When I think about all of this as I write, I realize that I should be very thankful for where I am at right now in life. I am not bogged down by the stresses of school, I am not feeling depressed, I can handle social situations pretty damn well, and most importantly I am actually having some fun. I may not be doing the most exciting things whenever I am out and about but you know what, what I am doing is fine with me. Everything is just relaxed and “fine” if that makes any sense.

Don’t get me wrong, I realize that this type of lifestyle isn’t sustainable at this time in my life. However, I’m trying my best to be immersed by what I am experiencing during my day to day right now. Even if all I am doing is sitting around with a few friends, smoking a cigarette, and talking about some of the stupidest shit known to man…well…I am ok with that. I try to enjoy everything I can and after writing this piece I will most likely try to enjoy it even more so.

And that’s a wrap. I am off right now to enjoy life some more. I really do hope this mood lasts because it is definitely something to hold on too even thought it may sound extremely ridiculous to you. Don’t worry, I’ll eventually produce some decent content for this blogsite…